Bullet Journal – June 2020 Cover Page

I’m so late to this. Man, I don’t know what happened this month. I’ve literally told myself that I need to do this every day and just didn’t. I don’t really have an excuse, it was pure laziness on my part. I promise I’ll do better next month.

The Black Lives Matter movement is something that I feel very strongly about and although no one really sees my bullet journal, I wanted to remember this time when I look back and make sure that I feel good about my support.

Personally I haven’t been able to donate much money to the cause, but I’ve made sure to sign the petitions and to share information. I’ve also been having conversations with members of my family. I’m not sure how much is getting through, but hopefully it’ll encourage the people around me to educate themselves about the movement and to support the cause as well.

I think the important thing to remember during this time is that every little bit helps and that we all need to continue to educate ourselves on these issues. If you’re reading this and have the means or time, I encourage you to check out the following websites:

Ways You Can Help
Black Lives Matter
A Growing List of Resources for the Black Lives Matter Movement

We need to do better. We need to educate ourselves. We need to give our support.

This isn’t about politics. This is about humanity and compassion for others.

I was going to post my monthly spread as well, but it feels wrong to add it to this post. Its basically the same as past months, so nothing really necessary to include, and I don’t want to take away from the rest of the post by bringing this back to my journal.

Anyway, I really do hope that even just one person sees this and checks out the resources above. Hopefully the world progresses in the right way and July brings justice to the many families who have been subjected to police brutality.

Where the Crawdads Sing by Delia Owens

I’ve been meaning to read this book for awhile and had heard really good things about it. I wasn’t exactly sure what it was about and I certainly wasn’t prepared for it.

I love a good murder mystery and I like how this one had the pieces of the mystery interspersed between the story of Kya growing up. The juxtaposition of the chapters with the investigation and the chapters that told the story of her life really helped add to the intrigue and to make the reader feel for Kya.

It’s actually kind of a sad story. The poor Marsh Girl who had to learn how to raise herself. All she wanted was for someone to prove that they loved her by staying and it seemed like everyone she ever let herself care about left.

****SPOILER ALERT****

 

I actually had to stop reading when Tate left to go to college. I thought for sure he would come back and when he didn’t, it kind of broke my heart. He made up for it with publishing her books and ultimately staying with her for good, but it was really sad.

Chase Andrews is a whole other story. You know, he seemed like he did care for Kya. I wanted to believe that he was a decent person. The way he wore her seashell necklace all the time had to mean something, right?

He had seemed kind of sweet at one point, but I guess it was always about getting the Marsh Girl.

The trial had me completely on edge. Once she was arrested, I couldn’t put the book down. I had to know what would happen to her. I know this is fiction, but every time her lawyer questioned a witness I was so happy because he seemed like he was doing such a good job.

I was very happy with the ending, and the little thing Tate finds at the very end. I’m not sure how she did it, but good for her. Chase would have never left her alone and she wouldn’t have had her happy ending if not.

Sorry for all the spoilers in this one. I just really loved this story and had to get all that off my chest haha.

Bullet Journal – Series Tracker

Since we’ve been on lockdown, I’ve really dedicated myself to the television.

Just kidding 😉 But I have spent a lot of time watching tv while stuck at home. I’ve definitely spent too much time doing this recently, but it’s given me the time to watch some really great shows. Honestly I went through these so fast that I’ve actually started another tracker (look out for the future post) and I’m already 4 or 5 shows into that tracker.

Maybe I should spend more time reading…or go outside haha.

The Stranger by Harlan Coben

Wow, just wow. I just finished reading The Stranger and I felt like I immediately needed to put down my thoughts.

What a story. Seriously. There were little things at first that I thought were kind of lazy writing. I won’t spoil it, but the names of the websites that the stranger was getting their information from just seemed too obvious for me. I actually think I rolled my eyes when Adam found out the web address for the website his wife used.

Once I got past that though, the story was so could. I honestly felt like I couldn’t put it down. Each chapter ended so well that I needed to keep reading. It had so many unexpected twists and turns. I loved it. It kind of reminded me of The Girl With the Dragon Tattoo. Not the story exactly, but the mystery and how it was solved. I wonder if Harlan Coben is a fan.

The ending was good, but wasn’t what I wanted. I guess I always kind of want happy endings, but we don’t always get what we want. I really can’t wait to watch the show on Netflix. I’ve heard that it’s British, which is interesting. I wonder why they made that change.

Anyway…I absolutely loved this. Has Harlan Coben written anything else? I may need to check him out.

Bullet Journal – Movie Tracker

This is kind of a fun one. Well, it could be more fun…I should really go back to some of my old journals and upload some of the old spreads I would do.

Anyway! This is how I keep track of movies that I’ve watched in my bullet journal. It’s really pretty simple. I used to make it more decorative, but I kind of liked the idea of keeping track of the date that I watched it and my rating.

Side note: did anyone else hate Once Upon A Time in Hollywood? Everyone seems to love it, but I really hated how it ended.

Bullet Journal – May 2020 Cover Page & Monthly Spread

So here we are in May. There’s not much to update you on in my life. We’re still on stay-at-home orders. I’m still working from home. Not much has changed and I’m sure everyone is in the same boat.

I recently purchased a record player on Amazon. It hasn’t actually arrived yet (it got lost in the mail and I had to order a replacement), but that’s why I decided to make the “theme” of my cover page a record player.

I’m actually not really happy with how this one turned out. I didn’t share it on social media because it was kind of sloppy and I wish I would have taken more time on it.

The cover page kind of bled into the monthly spread as you can see above. Just not really happy with it at all.

My sister’s birthday is this month and I’ll see my family on Mother’s Day, so those are things to look forward to.

I’ve just felt really bored and off so far this month. All I do is sleep, eat, and work so it feels a little like I’m wasting my life away. I really look forward to being able to have a drink at a bar again or just to sit at a restaurant with my family. Guess we’ll see what next month brings.

Modern Love: True Stories of Love, Loss and Redemption by Daniel Jones

I’m not sure I’ve ever really talked about this, but  I do the majority of my reading on a Kindle. I’m sure that’s pretty common now, so it’s not something that really needs to be talked about. I’ve always been a reader though, so I do kind of love the feeling of flipping through pages and having an actual book in your hands.

Every so often, I’ll take trips to the bookstore with my family members and search for something new to read. Right before we were issued stay-at-home orders, my mom and I went to Books A Million just on a whim one day. I actually have a really hard time finding books at bookstores because I want to walk through the entire store and check out everything before I make a decision. There was a section for books that have been made into tv shows and movies that I kept coming back to, so eventually I made two purchases there.

Modern Love stuck out to me. I feel like I’ve hinted at this a few times in past posts, but I’ve had this “thing” with a person for almost 3 years now that’s been very hot and cold. I think it’s safe to say it’s over for good now, but it was definitely a roller coaster of emotions for me the last few years.

I’m not going to share all the details here, but what stuck out to me the most about this book was that it was about unconventional love stories. My story with this person didn’t make sense to anyone else that knew the details and it doesn’t have a happy ending, but I felt like (at least on my part) it was real, pure love. Now, enough about me…

I really enjoyed this book. I loved that the stories about the relationships weren’t just couples. I loved how different they all were. The stories made me teary-eyed, they made me laugh, they made me smile. Above everything, I felt like each story touched me in a different way. I felt like each story was important to be reading, even if I couldn’t relate.

I would absolutely recommend this book to everyone. I actually already passed it on to my mom (great thing about having an actual book, right?). Who knows if she’ll actually read it, but I hope she does.

Pride and Prejudice by Jane Austen

If anyone else has read the After series, they’ll completely understand why I chose to read Wuthering Heights and Pride and Prejudice next. Kind of crazy how one author’s words can inspire you so much that you feel the need to read other works they mentioned just so that you can understand their characters better, isn’t it?

I’m not super familiar to Jane Austen’s work to be honest. I remember reading Emma in high school, but it was for an assignment and for some reason anytime I’ve been assigned to read it I just don’t do well with retaining any of it. Probably some psychology we could get into there, but this isn’t the place for that.

I also did read Pride and Prejudice and Zombies, but I think that and the original novel really should be kept separate from each other. I don’t remember it that well, but as far as I’m concerned they tell very different stories.

When I started reading Pride and Prejudice, I have to say, I was really bored. The first half of the book was really uninteresting to me and honestly I was struggling to get through it without falling asleep. Darcy was a jerk, Elizabeth hated him.

When he confessed his feelings for her it felt really out of place. I understand that he had pride, so he felt that anyone would be honored to receive a proposal from him, but what really made him think she would accept? Maybe he thought she was mean to him because she liked him? It was just strange to me.

However, once she told him off and he wrote her the letter I did start to feel more connection to the story. They misunderstood each other and had to adjust their ways of thinking to come back together at the end. It was cool to see the ways that they both changed.

I did really enjoy the second half of the book. Seeing Darcy redeem himself with Elizabeth and the ways that he was willing to change the way he was and help her out behind the scenes because he loved her was actually kind of touching. Elizabeth ended up with Darcy because she respected him and because he respected her. I can definitely see why so many people love this story.

My grandmother apparently loved the adaptation with Colin Firth, so I may need to check that out eventually. In the meantime, I’m going to go watch Pride and Prejudice and Zombies because it’s free on Comcast right now.

Bullet Journal – April 2020 Cover Page & Monthly Spread

Here we are again posting my cover page at the end of the month. Sorry guys! Things have been so strange with the pandemic and the state of the world right now.

To be completely honest, I’m finding it hard to find motivation to do anything. Working from home is definitely not something that I enjoy. Okay, so maybe it was fun for a week or two to not have to get dressed for work and to sit and drink tea all day long. Now it’s just sort of frustrating.

I used to be able to leave work at work. I would drive the 20 minutes it takes to get home and blast my music if I felt stressed about something, and then go home and enjoy my peaceful space.

Now it’s become a part of my space. I can’t really escape it. Even when I shut down for the day I’m still thinking about it. I’m thinking about if I put in enough work for the day. I’m thinking about what I can do tomorrow to be better. Even on the weekends I’m thinking about doing work just because I don’t have anything else to do and could really get a good start on some of the projects.

I’ve tried to do other things to keep myself busy during this time, but it’s really hard.

I tell myself I’m going to catch up on new Netflix series, read more, exercise more, eat healthier, improve my quality of life, etc. I will give myself some credit – I ordered a ton of painting supplies from Michael’s and have started getting back into making art. So far, that’s the one thing that’s helped me stay sane during this stay-at-home order.

I haven’t really done much else though. Plus my overthinking is getting the best of me and I’ve definitely pushed people away…not going to get into that today though.

So now that I’ve vented all my personal COVID-19 frustrations, lets get back to bullet journaling…

I decided to go with a Spring theme this month. I was inspired by the daffodils growing in my backyard. I guess the blooming of flowers after the cold winter is kind of a sign of hope for better, warmer days. I was obviously feeling a lot more positive at the beginning of the month.

I’ve really slacked on keeping up with my habits. I did get in some reading the last two days, so I’m happy that I’ll be able to fill in those little boxes. Really need to start making dinner more, but honestly it’s mostly that I have so many leftovers as a single person that I don’t really need to make more than 2 or 3 meals a week to keep myself fed.

Not really much else to share about this month. How’s everyone else coping?

Bullet Journal – March 2020 Cover Page & Monthly Spread

You’d think with all the time I’ve had being home because of the coronavirus that I’d get this post done before now, but here we are!

I decided to make March’s “theme” the Salem Witch Trials. I’ve always been interesting in witchcraft, paganism, wiccans, etc. I wouldn’t say that I practice any of them, but I burn sage occasionally and put my crystals outside during full moons. I’m sure there are other things I do that would be considered “witchcraft” but they’re not coming to the top of my head right now.

This month has gone completely differently than I thought it would. I’ve been terrible with my trackers and it’s been 8 days since I left my house. I’m not really sure what’s going to happen, how secure my job is, or if I’ll be able to pay my bills in the coming months. I’m worried about people that I care about who still have to go into work and I’m scared that I’ll get sick.

I know pretty much everyone is in the same boat. It’s all just really scary and I feel like my anxiety is through the roof. Sorry for the kind of depressing post, but it’s a little hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel with everything going on.

I have had some time to organize my house a bit and I cleared all the weeds and dead plants out of my garden this past weekend, so I’m making an effort to be productive. I definitely need to do more though. I need to get exercise. I need to finally post more about my travels. I need to figure out what’s next once this is all over.

Really hoping things start to improve in April!