Bullet Journal – July Cover Page

I’m a little late with this one. I had actually meant to do this earlier in the month and thought that I did, and then just realized that it was never posted. Oops!

June was certainly interesting with that Mercury retrograde. If you follow along with astrology, you may know that the Mercury retrograde tends to bring back people from your past, and mine sure did! I didn’t talk to the person, just saw them from across a store, but it hit me hard with all those unresolved feelings. Nothing came out of it because I’ve learned over the years that I can’t be the one always reaching out, but it definitely wasn’t easy this time.

July has been pretty decent so far. I’ve had off work this week and I’ve enjoyed getting caught up on things, watching shows, reading, visiting restaurants that I’ve been dying to try, etc. It feels like I’m finally getting back out there and not just wasting my life sitting at home.

Things are going well, I’m hoping they’ll just keep getting better!

Hillbilly Elegy: A Memoir of a Family and Culture in Crisis by J.D. Vance

Like almost every other book I read, I watched this movie first. I thought that the movie was good, the actors played their roles really well, and the story was interesting. However, I felt that there was probably way more to this story than what they were portraying. Boy, was I right.

My aunt and I were talking about the movie and how we both wanted to read the book. She actually surprised me by sending a copy to me in the mail (special shout-out to Aunt Angie!).

***MAJOR MOVIE AND BOOK SPOILERS AHEAD***

I was surprised when I started reading that the book wasn’t set up like the movie. It didn’t start in the present with a major conflict that the main character was dealing with, it just started from the beginning of J.D.’s life.

It threw me off at first, but I liked it way better. Starting from the beginning really allowed us to see everything through J.D.’s eyes. We got all the background on his family in Kentucky, his Mamaw and Papaw’s move to Ohio and everything that led up to his childhood. It really helped to set the scene and give the reader the sense of hope for a better future by getting out of Kentucky.

If you’ve read the book or seen the movie, you know that his grandparents getting out of Kentucky wasn’t all sunshine and rainbows. They never lost their “hillbilly” side and had very strong and aggressive personalities. It made his mothers life very difficult, which in turn made J.D.’s life difficult.

This sort of rut that they were stuck in is something that I think needs to be talked about more. I don’t think people realize it, but when you grow up in circumstances where you’re told this is all you’ll ever amount to and this is what you should expect from life, it’s really hard to get out of that. J.D.’s mom was smart and did well in school, but as he mentions ended up pregnant and divorced before she was even out of her teens. She was just a product of her environment and once she was caught up in it, she didn’t find her way out.

J.D. was on that path as well because he was also stuck in that environment. It wasn’t until he took control of his life and moved in permanently with his Mamaw that his life started to change for the better. Through a series of choices that he made, without any real goals, he became the exception to the rule. He made it to Yale. He made it out of poverty. He was able to improve his life and recognize that he wasn’t the norm for people who grew up the same way.

He also recognized that he didn’t do this on his own. He needed help and he needed people to help him figure out how to get that help. It was actually shocking to me as well when he realized that he could spend less going to Yale than he did going to a local college. It makes sense when you think about it, because there’s plenty of financial aid for people who need it when they go to college, and of course ivy-league schools have lots of money to give. It made really wonder how many people haven’t even tried because they didn’t think they could afford it. How many people were told that they couldn’t accomplish going to a better school because they would end up with too much debt?

Since I watched the movie first, I was shocked to find out that the entire conflict in the movie wasn’t even mentioned in the book. J.D. wasn’t interrupted during his dinner to find out his mother had overdosed and had to drive all night to make it to the hospital. He didn’t take her to a rehab where he had to pay with multiple credit cards. He didn’t catch her trying to use at a dirty motel.

There were mentions of similar situations, but nothing so dramatic as what they portrayed in the movie. It actually made the movie feel cheap and like a disservice to J.D. real, true story. They used his family’s problems to create a dramatic situation that took away from his accomplishment. They made it about Amy Adams, when it should’ve just been about how he got away from her.

It’s not often that I’m disappointed in movie adaptations, but this one is pretty bad in my opinion.

Everything he wrote about was real and interesting. It’s eye-opening and inspiring to see how someone from a totally different background can accomplish more than they ever thought was possible. It really does show that opportunity is out there, but it’s not as accessible as we think.

This was truly a great book and great story. I really hope that everyone who watched the movie takes the time to read the book.

Bullet Journal – February Cover Page

Yay for getting this one posted before the end of the month! I really need to get better about this, I’m trying I promise!

I was trying to think of a way to show love for Valentine’s Day and February without being overly Valentine’s Day, you know? I saw this tattoo drawing on Pinterest that was supposed to represent Persephone and knew that I had to copy it for my bujo.

If you keep up with my blog, you may have seen that I read Mythology: Timeless Tales of Gods and Heroes by Edith Hamilton back in October 2019. I mentioned there how much the story of Persephone and Hades stuck out to me and that I wanted to read more about them. I’ve read a little here and there, but really feel drawn to Persephone. I love that she’s the goddess of Spring and the queen of the Underworld. She can be soft and sweet but also strong and dark. I feel that way about myself sometimes, like I don’t really fit into one box.

I like that they’re one of the few couples in mythology that seem like they have a strong relationship. Hades is completely in love with Persephone, and unlike other gods he doesn’t have extramarital affairs and children all over the place.

They definitely have their problems and are only able to spend half of the year together, so honestly not the ideal relationship, but if we’re being honest what relationship doesn’t have problems? If this is what works for them, then that’s cool, right?

Anyway, I just like that I was able to find a way to make my theme about a love that I find interesting. Thought about doing another Bridgerton drawing, but that might be too much Bridgerton even for me.

There really isn’t much else to write about this month. We’re getting lots of snow, the Groundhog saw his shadow so winter isn’t over any time soon, I’m still working two jobs…

Hopefully I’ll have more to write about new month, but no news is better than bad news, so I’ll take it!

Happy February everyone 🙂

Bullet Journal – September 2020 Cover Page & Monthly Spread

Happy September everyone! We’re a little more than halfway through the month and there isn’t really much to update everyone on. Although everything is different because of COVID, I feel like I’m starting to feel sort of normal? I know, crazy right?

This is definitely a new normal, but it doesn’t feel quite as suffocating as it did before. Does anyone else feel this way too? I feel like I have some what of a routine again. I’m still working, Fall is basically here, football is on. I don’t know, it just feels like something I can get used to.

Personally I haven’t gone out to eat and I really don’t go to any stores unless it’s for groceries or alcohol. I haven’t really seen any friends since March, which is really weird, but I’m also kind of a homebody so I don’t really feel like I’m suffering too much socially. I actually feel like I’ve been talking to people more often than I would have because we’re checking in with each other to see how we’re doing through everything.

Obviously my dating life has halted completely. I’m okay with that though. I don’t think I have the time or energy for anything new right now and it’s good to just have this time to work on myself.

Anyway, my theme for this month is Alice in Wonderland. I have the phrase “It’s no use going back to yesterday because I was a different person then” from Alice in Wonderland tattooed on my back. It’s something I always go back to whether I’ve had a good/bad/normal day. I use it as a reminder that I’m always growing as a person and to not look back on things that have happened so much because I’ve grown from whatever experience.

I feel like with everything going on, it’s more important that ever to remind myself that everything I experience makes me grow and that I need to keep looking forward rather than looking to the past and wondering how I could have changed things.

I don’t have too much going on this month. The planets are certainly active, so that should be interesting! Also, as you can see, I’ve been terrible about reading. I know, I know. I’ll get on it. Sorry!!

Hope everyone’s having a good month! Happy almost Spooky Season!!

Bullet Journal – May 2020 Cover Page & Monthly Spread

So here we are in May. There’s not much to update you on in my life. We’re still on stay-at-home orders. I’m still working from home. Not much has changed and I’m sure everyone is in the same boat.

I recently purchased a record player on Amazon. It hasn’t actually arrived yet (it got lost in the mail and I had to order a replacement), but that’s why I decided to make the “theme” of my cover page a record player.

I’m actually not really happy with how this one turned out. I didn’t share it on social media because it was kind of sloppy and I wish I would have taken more time on it.

The cover page kind of bled into the monthly spread as you can see above. Just not really happy with it at all.

My sister’s birthday is this month and I’ll see my family on Mother’s Day, so those are things to look forward to.

I’ve just felt really bored and off so far this month. All I do is sleep, eat, and work so it feels a little like I’m wasting my life away. I really look forward to being able to have a drink at a bar again or just to sit at a restaurant with my family. Guess we’ll see what next month brings.

Before I Fall by Lauren Oliver

Before I Fall was one of those movies that really makes you think about your life and the way that you treat people. There are things that I said and did in high school that I 100% regret and wish that I could take back, and in this story Sam got the chance to change how she treated the people in her life.

It’s one of those stories that really makes you realize that everything you say and do can affect someone in a way that you didn’t intentionally mean, and that you should do your best to be good to others and honest about your feelings because you never know when it will be your last day on this Earth.

Basically, I really like this movie and I loved the book even more.

Even though I knew how the story would end, while I was reading I couldn’t help but hope that it would be different and that somehow both Sam and Juliet could be saved.

It’s definitely a sad story and I’m not going to lie, it was hard to read about a girl killing herself over and over again. But it’s a good story and it has a good message.

Seriously, why are people so afraid to live their lives the way they want? We should be able to speak our mind and tell people how we really feel without worrying about being judged for it by others. Why do people care so much about what others do? It doesn’t make sense.

Live your life the way you want, tell the people that you love that you love them, be a good person, and read this book 🙂